I Cry At The Worst Times!!!!!

I absolutley hate the fact that I get so emotional and tear up when I’m extremely upset. For instance, when I get confronted by my boss at work who’s a real *****, I would love to be strong and stick by my words and say exactly what I am feeling in a calm intelligent manner, but instead I wind up trying to fight back tears because she does not give me a chance to respond and it drives me insane!

The last time she confronted me over the dummest thing, I went back to my desk and tried really hard to hold it together and breathe so that I could face her again, but the tears started streaming. I work in a Bank at the front desk, so clients are always coming and going and I cannot allow myself to be seen all upset, so I quickly wipe my tears and suck it up. But then along comes the boss again to have another “talk” and there go the tears again. I turn away from her so she won’t see, but its pretty obvious.

What upsets me is that I let people see that side of me instead of being the strong-minded person I know I am. It’s a sign of weakness and I don’t want to be that person, but i’ve always been that way since i was a child. I try to calm down, but by that time my drive to really say what’s on my mind is gone. That is just one situation, there are many more. How can I say what’s on my mind without sheading a tear and letting people think they have some kind of power over me or that they have won because they have managed to belittle me. I need help.

 

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About Arun Mishra

“We often becomes what we believes ourself to be. If I keep on saying to myself that I cannot do a certain thing, it is possible that I may end by really becoming incapable of doing it. On the contrary, if I have the belief that I can do it, I shall surely acquire the capacity to do it even if I may not have it at the beginning.” SO, “If you put your effort and concentration into playing to your potential, to be the best that you can be, I don't care what the scoreboard says at the end of the game, in my book we're gonna be winners. Because "I feel like my wings are finally coming back. They were broken, and there was a point where I thought I was confined to this earth. But I feel like they're back now. And I'm excited to fly again. And sure, there are going to be bad and tough times. I can easily see them now but that's not a reason to stay on the ground. Everyone has to fall sometime but no matter how long it takes you, you eventually get tired of dragging your feet through the mud, and you get up and find your wings have healed and they ache to fly again. So I'll fly, I'll fall, I'll get back up, and I'll live."
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